Late Nights and Cigarettes
I find a kind of peace
in the scent you’ve left
with me.
But these things
these things tend to
fade quickly.
Hooked. I think
and sense
this is nothing
but a warning sign
something similar
to an ignorant
denial.
You’re everything
I’ve said no to.
But these red flags
aren’t blowing in the wind
like they used to.
Your scent
brings me a kind of peace.
I think this is cigarettes
and late nights
inhale
and release.
But I breathe you in
and try to hold you
in every second.
The distribution of your cells within
my chest
it’s unhealthy obsession.
I don’t know what
smells good anymore.
Or what my own skin
is supposed to remind
me of.
I’ve lost all my senses
it’s all mixed up.
These are late nights
and cigarettes
and I remember
how I don’t want
to go back to those
moments
that I used to forget.
But I already seem to be
forgetting,
what it is I’m made...