Seeking
I could spend my whole life fighting the world I was born into,
Blaming a time I didn’t choose.
Or I can accept it.
I can accept this miracle of life.
Accept that my lungs expand in a society I am not in love with.
Maybe then I can fall in love with my lungs, my life, this life, this world.
I find myself seeking,
In spiritual discontent.
Seeking in a world I don’t trust, in a society that repulses me.
Yet a society I fear to leave.
I am seeking, searching for peace of mind, peace of body.
As my mind twists and turns my chest hurts, carrying a weight it never chose to pick up.
I feel alone, utterly alone.
Overwhelmed with these feelings of discontent.
Nothing, nothing, ever being good enough.
And who am I?
How am I more deserving than the next one?
The pain in my chest is back.
In hours of day, in hours of night.
It wakes me, and it slows my sleep.
I know it shouldn’t...